I am creating this series to show different perspectives of people's personalities and feelings that are often obscured due to all different reasons. The series uses the figure of a clown, famous for provoking joy and laughter in people, to show a different side for the viewer: a deeper self. My intention in photographing this project was to bring these dense feelings out from darkness, where everybody hides their own pain and secrets. It reveals that behind this mask that a person also exists, someone who feels deeply. I want to explore this controversial duality, to point out the fact that all of that “dark side” that we tried so hard to hide is more universal than we could have ever expected.
I used the clown figure to represent this masquerade " persona" in front of the cameras, exposing an obscure side—despite being nearly overwhelmed by quotidian issues, it persists. The clown is performing his own pain, becoming the main character of his own story, showing that this is a big part of who he is. The clown is showing to the world everything that is hidden, repressed, and hard to accept as being in his reality. In a deeply dramatic way to present himself to the world... for the first time. The clown is using his own tragedy to make his show. The clown is using the entertainment's premises, where sadness and suffering is explored to exhaustion, and cheered for, to bring attention to his own agony, to get noticed in a desperate attempt in exist in this world, to become less invisible. The clown shows us that even the most unexpected person is capable to live deep and heavy feelings that go unnoticed in the masquerade of daily living; it's like distorting reality without knowing what is real.